Saturday, January 29, 2005

Why Gay Guy

I am in love with this guy I have known for five years we have always been the closet friends. He believe he could tell me anything. In doing so , he told me one day that he was GAY. It totally hurt my feelings. I finally realized why he never asked me out, he was into guys. A couple of weeks ago he told me he wasn't,t gay anymore, he said it was the worst decision he every made. He sad that something was tormenting him, he had little thoughts in his head that told him he was going to hell. Well, last night he told me he went to the movies with this GAY guy, should I believe that he is no longer gay. It doesn't matter because I told him I no longer wanted to be his friend for playing with my emotions and I have ended our friendship!

Thursday, January 27, 2005

Sneaky Things

I do and say things that aren'tr nesseraly true , but who doesn't. The only thing that i hate is that some of the things I say hurt the people that are closest to me. I often wish i could take them back but that is not possible. I believe that since I have been hurt by numerous people throughout my life, it is my turn to hurt someone, now that I am older I realize this is wrong.

I told a few Lies to a guy that I liked about my bestfriend whom liked this guy to, inspite of her being in a commited relationship. I thought me pursuing this guy was no big deal because of my friends situation. Eventually I was able to swoon the guy and we eventually had sexually relations. He was one of the nicest thoughtful people I had ever meet, but after our lusty night I realized that, he was simply a chidish little boy.

I have yet to tell my bestfriend of me and the guys intimate night, but that no longer matters because me and her are no longer friends. Karma.